And Yet He Still Smiles

The folks and I went to a fundraiser for Chuck yesterday.  For those of you that don't remember, Chuck is the guy who called out of the blue to raise my spirits prior to the transplant and stayed with my family while I underwent the transplant.  He also is one of the main individuals in this area who does all he can to promote organ donation and often organizes all of our transplant events. 

Unfortunately, he was diagnosed with non-Hodgkins lymphoma this year and has had many complications from it.  It is not unusual for tranplant patients to get this, in fact, it is almost a guarantee at some point or another.  He went septic shortly after starting chemo and was touch and go there for a while, but recently was allowed to leave the hospital and seems to be holding his own.  However, his medical expenses (which are high as a transplant patient anyway) have been a heavy burden for his family and a group of people organized "ChuckFest" where a silent auction, music, food, and general fun was held to help gather money for the family and expenses.

There was Chuck....sitting in a wheelchair...no hair...about 60 pounds thinner...still smiling.  He was happy to see me and my folks when we walked up to him.  He said his heart was in great shape but the rest of him took a little vacation for a while, but he fights on.  As LeAnne Taylor, a local media celebrity who is a friend of Chuck's put it, God isn't done with him yet.  In fact, God is still doing great things in his life.  He met a nurse at the hospital who turned out to be the one who talked his donor family into doing organ donation, which turned out to be the heart Chuck got.  They've gotten to be great friends through all this.

I wish the small amount I was able to donate to Chuck could be 100X the amount it was, because Chuck was so much help to us.  Even as he continues to battle, he also continues to laugh and smile about the challenges he's faced and is still facing.  His family continues to support him, most especially his wife.

Yet, I also can't help but wonder if I'll have to face something similar.  Our family history with cancer is not that great and transplant patients with no immune system...well, let's just say it is quite the fight.  I've recently been thinking about what I want to do with the rest of my time here.  I used to think I wanted to be an administrator but I'm pretty sure that I don't want to do discipline all day long...I get enough of dealing with that as a counselor as it is.  I enjoy working with curriculum and helping people with new technology and teaching methods.  I even get into evaluating test results!  But asking me to deal with misbehaving kids all day long...as much as I want to get into administration I just don't think that is for me.  And, knowing that the possibility that I may have to deal with cancer and all those ramification any time in the future...well, it just doesn't seem like it is in the cards for me.

Like Chuck, I hope God isn't done with me yet.  I just wish He'd provide a little guidance into what direction I should start looking for my future.  I've always loved the verse in Jeremiah..."I know the plans I have for you, plans for good and not for evil..." but there are times when I wish He'd clue me in a little bit.  I should just take a clue from Chuck....and trust that God knows best.  And try to keep smiling.